WOW

This is a comment that was left on my friend Brandy's blog (link in sidebar). I could not have said it better.

It is hard to totally take in just the joy in a truly joyous moment when it comes after 9 months of weight gain, swelling, nausea, exhaustion, surgery, upset of familiar routines, hormonal adjustments, expenses, long-late nights, emotional siblings, and lack of control of things we want control of (our lives!)

HOLY COW! That about sums up how I feel. I am about one more sleepless night away from losing it too. I have not gone too many places yet, but Jody goes back to work tomorrow and I fear I will never be able to leave the house again. Especially with a nursing baby who eats every freaking two hours. As in I start feeding him at 12, I start again at 2. Short leash- Jody's words. A trip to Wal-Mart takes twice as long, let alone go on more than one errand at a time! Not to mention that I would have to haul around three kids. Two was hard enough. I am not a stay home and chill all the time kind of person. I mean I like to do that, but I really like to leave too. I wonder how long I am going to survive! (Can we advance my first child into Kindergarten and go ahead and make it an all day affair here???).
To add to it some details, we received my portion of the hospital bill today. Besides the fact that each percocet (and I took lots) were $3.55 each (When you pay $5 at Smiths for a whole bottle, maybe $4 at Costco), there is the room charge. Now I am not complaining, I could have left before I did and I would have been fine (maybe?), I just want to point this out. Maybe next time I will have my baby and check us both out and head for the Bellagio. I am dead serious. My room charge was $515 a night. That did not include the nurses. They charged for those as well. LOTS. Okay, right now we have pretty damn good insurance. They pay 90%. Well, they just changed, due to all the crap that is going on and I am sure the downward spiral of newspapers does not help. Anyway, they won't pay so much next time. SO what I am saying is- how much is the Bellagio? I always wanted to stay there. I mean I would have to be extra careful not to ruin anything (haha), but other than that, I can get up the next day, and Jody can help me do that. I may just get a real luxury vacay rather than a pretend one :). I wonder what the nursery bill is going to look like... (just in case you are curious, my maternity bill was more than $9000. Not including baby, my OB, Anesthesia, etc. Just the hospital. If you don't have insurance, I pray you qualify for Medicaid.)

Sorry, I am neurotic. Going to feed baby and go to bed. For an hour or two. Pray that it is three or four, that would be much, much better and maybe it would recharge me for the no sleep that is going to come tomorrow night!